Episode 8 – Little Miss Career Mom

Welcome to the 8th episode of my life as a mom!

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This month's episode is a few days late because I've been struggling with writer's block. I've gone back and forth, ransacked my brain for something to rant about, and I'm still so blank at the time of writing this, but I've decided to just keep writing.

Last month has been the most hectic of all so far. I took a job, I mean a 9-5, and added it to my mom life. No, I don't hate myself; I just wanted to experience what it would be like to be a career mom. Growing up, my mom was a career mom, and I remember vividly how she used to put everything together. I really wanted a taste of it, so I got it.

I almost couldn't make up for this episode since I've been getting back so tired every day, and all I want to do is, freshen up myself and my child, eat, and sleep – then we repeat the cycle every day five times a week.

I recently had an ulcer attack (yes, I am a member of the ulcer patients club), but I've not had any crises since I got pregnant and had my child. This attack happened because I tried fasting for Ramadan*.

There are exemptions for pregnant women, nursing moms, the sick, and travelers, but I remembered that I had missed last year's fasting and I have to pay it back, and this pushed me into thinking that I could pay it back this year.

Day 1 went smoothly, but day 2?? LMAO, my ulcer said, 'Don't try me, honey.'

I was severely dealt with; the pain was three times what I would usually feel. And to think that fasting used to be really easy for me – I even enjoyed it – but this time, I was advised to stop regardless of how much I wanted to participate with my hubby.

It was really painful to come to terms with this new development. To every mom who can fast without being too affected by it, you are my hero, and I wish you good luck. But, I must say, breastfeeding and fasting shouldn't even be in the same sentence; this is why God made an exception for nursing mothers.

The whole experience made me wonder how other mothers do it. How do you manage your home and cater to your child when you are sick and can't carry on?

My ulcer pain lasted a whole day, but I couldn't ignore all the activities I had planned out for the day – I still did the laundry and some other important chores.

There is no day off for mothers; you must show up regardless of how you feel. You can't give any excuses as long as you still have your breath, lol.

Lately, whenever I find people around me offering to help me with chores or my child, I don't even think twice before jumping on it because there's no award for suffering.

Sometimes, that little break is all you get, so embrace it.

*Ramadan is the ninth month of the Islamic calendar. Muslims are obligated to fast in this month; it is referred to as the holy month in which the holy Quran was revealed to the prophet Muhammad PBUH.